My blogger was down yesterday and I can't remember what I said my title was! :)

So, this year at school really sucked! It definitely had its moments outside of school time that were really great, but the school part was really not good. I definitely did not adjust well to the U of C and I really regret that I didn't try harder to do so. Even talking to some people in a couple of classes probably would have helped, because feeling alone was the biggest trouble for sure. REally though, that's not what I've been thinking about. I've been thinking about the way I worked. And that's really that I didn't. I sure did more work than I've ever done before, particularly in my theory classes, because those were so awesome. I just need to learn to transfer the type of work ethic that I started in those classes and generalize them to all of my classes. I'm not sure how, but this summer I'd like to prepare myself to be able to do that. The last couple of days I've really been thinking about how I obviously need to change my life. It just isn't worth slacking off and flunking out of school for nothing. I think me and Nattie (I know I shouldn't speak for her, and I'm probably wrong, so keep that in mind) have tried to keep up our highschool habits (definitely me at least 1000 times more than her, probably not her at all, she always did her homework, I almost never did), so MY highschool habits and I haven't started working. At least not like I should. So, next year I'm just going to have to try harder. It started out well at the beginning of the winter semester, I was taking it one day at a time and doing my math homework, and the thing that kills me is that once I start doing it, I totally love it! I love math and I love reading social theory and trying to get meaning from it and trying to navigate it, I can just never get going! To be perfectly honest, I'd sit in my theory class like a pig in mud I was so happy! I would sit there and think, "this is what I'm meant to do with my life", but I'll never get there if I don't stop being so damn lazy! So next semester I'll just have to try again! I think I'm going to change my basement sewing room around and get a table from Ikea and paint and put down a rug and I can do my work there. HAving somewhere to work/tutor will definitely help, because when I'm at work I always want to be doing schoolwork, so that will help. And other than that, I'll just have to pull motivation out as much as I can. So, I hope Jordan will help me out and do work with me sometimes, and I know Nattie already does work, so I will just have to follow her lead! Hopefully I can do this this time, or else I will honestly just have to take some time off because I cannot afford to bomb another school year! So wish me luck fellas!!!
On another note, there's something very wrong with my arm! It's really weak and it hurts a lot! They really screwed up royally with my IV and I've got really horrible bruises on my hand and on my arm (they obviously tried to put the IV in my hand first and it didn't work and then did an equally bad job on my arm). It's not good, I hope it's better tomorrow!!!!

Kamloops is gay.

I hate to dedicate an entire post to me being totally emo and such, but here it is... I was so upset today that Jordan left for Kamloops. It really did just sneak up on me, and that was particularly brutal. It also sucked so much more because after we had so many problems for those few weeks or that month or whatever there, it was just the absolute best weekend (for the most part), but relationship-wise, it was fabulous. The not so great part was that we got rear-ended on Saturday night and it was really scary, plus Nattie hit her head and due to the ITP thing, it was somewhat worrisome. The good news though, of course, is that she's fine. I sort of get the feeling that hitting her head, though it may be quite a worry even now, is much more of a threat when she has a really low platelet count. So, considering it's much higher (I think) than when we were in gr. 8, for instance, this is much good news. In any case though, it was still scary, but she tells me she feels fine, so this is VERY good news! It's also really good that James's parents were so very understanding about what happened. My parents would have been way more angry, not necessarily at me, but they still would have been SUPER angry! Doesn't really matter though, it's out of everyone's hands now, and most importantly, everyone is alright!

Ha ha, the real point of posting though, was to say about how wonderful the weekend was and how brutal it is that James left! So.... on Friday we had a little train adventure, then went out for dinner with his parents cause his mom got a new job with the CBE that she wanted (it sounded like a really intense interview), and that was awesome on all levels. Hmmm. The accident must have been Friday... so then we went home to my house, and ditched our plans to go to Backwoods and get hammed (cause none of us felt like it). We went to the mall, had a snack, bought Kernels popcorn, had the accident.... Then we went back to my house and watched 1 horrible movie that I'm thrilled I slept through and one really awesome movie that I've seen before and slept through a little bit of it. Then James slept over and it was just a lovely day! Then Saturday was pretty fun too! I had to tutor, and then me and James went over to his house and did laundry for his trip most of the day with his mom. Then we played a game of pool with her and then we went to Tomo's! And I got to meet Justin's new girlfriend Kate who is really nice!!!! And hanging out with Tomo and Justin is always real fun anyways! So, we went to Denny's with them for dinner, which was also delicious and fun at the same time! Then, we went to The Invisible with Neil, Lindsay, Kyle and Mel and had lots of fun even though the movie sort of blew chunks. Well, I thought it did but I know Kyle really liked it, so that's good! I still had an awesome time! Then we went to James's house and I slept there (I L-O-V-E sleeping in his bed, even by myself), it was so comfy! Then I came home to tutor and went right back to Jordy's house! My parents drove me there though, and Jordy's parents were outside having coffee/cigarettes and so they talked for what seemed like forever! And then me and James had a totally lovely day on Sunday and I bought 2 CDs which I'm so excited about (The Fray and Jeremy Fisher's newest)...and then it was JOHN MAYER TIME!!!! We had dinner with Fev and Steve at Tommy Burger and it was SOOOO good! And then John Mayer was freaking amazing! Then we went back to James's and had another sleepover and that was fun too! Then, we went to the bus station in the morning and I wanted to stay until James actually left, but I knew I was going to start crying and then I'd feel like a weirdo in front of his dad so I went upstairs a little early. Plus I didn't want to make his dad wait too long. Then his dad drove me home and I talked his ear off just like I did to Cieran at Jordy's 18th birthday (so embarassing, both times).... and then I came home and cried a bit and then ate my face off to be ready for wisdom teeth-ness today! (I started writing this sucka yesterday but then saved it, so now I'm finishing it on Tuesday, today)... In any case, I'm bummed that James isn't here but yesterday I went over to Nattie's and she's too sweet and bought me a wisdom tooth care package with soup and slurpee gift certificates and all this other awesome stuff...including this ridiculously cute beanie baby (the webkinz of the dark ages, ha ha)... And then Matt sent me a really sweet and thoughtful text message this morning wishing me all the best and so that made my heart warm too! So all in all, a mostly happy, somewhat sad weekend! And right now I just want my stupid mouth to stop bleeding! It's so gross!!! Anyways, I'm impressed if anyone lasted this long!!!! <3

Sunday

Quick update, more to come later (the day of three updates...maybe), but I was just thinking about how exciting it is that John Mayer is Sunday :) but very sad that it's the same day as The Amazing Race :( I'm bummed to miss it.

AHHHHHHH!

OK, I lost the bet already! I was exhausted yesterday and figured the slurpee was worth the sleep, so Nattie, I am so sorry I messed it up already! Slurpees are SOOOOOOOOOo on me on Thursday! And scratchees too, I say. Perhaps we could try it again. I love it when Nattie updates everyday. In any case, I can't stay long cause I'm at work, but I'm sorry Nattie! Please forgive me!!! :) <3

Nattie's bet?

I'm not sure, as I was quite sleepy last night, but I think that Nattie bet me a slurpee that I couldn't update every day for a week? I think. Anyways, if this is the case I will try my hardest, cause I would never turn down a free slurpee!!! In any case, I'll try and put some actual stuff in here because that will be more fun! Today I handed in my final paper for my theory class, which was really exciting. Even though I absolutely LOVED that class. So it's kind of sad that it's over, but I'm still happy for summer. Tomorrow is my last exam too, which is super exciting. I really hope I pass math. I have no idea what my mark is or anything, so who knows what will happen! OH well though. I just so want it to be over, really. I think I just stopped caring about that class. It was just too difficult to go to and she was such a bag for the most part. It was just a real downer I guess. Oh well, doesn't matter now! It shall be over soon!!! And that is very exciting news! I'm freezing my butt off in the basement!

James is leaving a week today for Kamloops or whatever, which sucks. I guess I didn't think that it would sneak up so soon. EDITED :) <3


Anyways, I hope that my idea of Nattie's bet is right, but I'm sure she'll let me know if I'm wrong, cause she can comment on my thing now!!!! HOORAY!!!

Bummed out .

I can't say why though. I think facebook is partly to blame ;) though. I feel kind of invisible. It's very strange. I think I just feel plain old weird. Although, tonight was the most exciting Survivor episode in the history of the show! It was sooooo good!!!! I had a really great time with Nattie. Maybe I'm just tired. Of working on something a lot of the time out of my day. It's very exhausting. It almost makes me excited for summer cause I won't have to work during the weekend (for the most part) and I'll have 1 less thing to do: school! I'm kind of glad that I didn't take a spring course. I still feel strange though. Strangely unhappy. Like in a general sense. I probably just need some sleep. This is what I will do: sleep. I suppose I find it frustrating that I have many good plans to do good things for myself or others and they usually just go down the toilet. It's very frustrating. I suppose this is a universal thing, but it's still no fun. Hm. In any case, I'm gonna go watch some TV and then fall asleep. Jordan better call me tonight or I will straight up murder his butt! Night all :)

Another youtube clip...

This is pretty impressive!!! If you don't like politics, etc. you might not like it, but I think it's pretty hilarious. It's just impressions, so it's nothing too intensely political-y or anything :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=urIZ0bqo7dU

EDIT: I watched the rest of it and it was not all that funny. So, cancel, I guess :)